I’ve tried both bumble and tinder recently and though it could help me escape this feeling, it feels weird and wrong somehow. There were tons of choices there but i just can’t accept the fact that i might find love there. I’ve accepted that past is in the past, i’m aware that my ex has moved on, aware that i’ve gotten the closure, but i’m not ready for anything. I’ve said it before and i’ll say it again. It’s a nightmare that i’ll never wake up from and it’s reality. Whether i like it or not, i’ll have to face this nightmare everyday. Trying to be strong is a challenge and i’ll never step away from this challenge. Write soon.