National Girlfriends Day

Today would be your day if we were still together and we would be spending time but it’s never gonna be the same again. Same time last year it was the same thing and I’m the one to blame. Whatever it is, today will always be your day regardless if we’re together or not because you deserve it. You weren’t just my girlfriend but also my best friend. The best of all is because you were there for me at all times, showered me with love unconditionally, but I didn’t do the same for you and it’s not fair. I remember in one of my counseling sessions, my counselor asked me “what would you do if you saw your ex getting married?” and it hit me hard. I was speechless and I stuttered because I was imagining. Since then, I’ve been preparing for the one day where I’d find out you being with another guy. Sure I’d be destroyed but I know you’d be happy and that’s what I want for you. You’ve told me a lot of times that it’s impossible that you’d be with a guy sooner than me being with a girl but truth be told, I still can’t see myself with another girl. If I have to be honest, I’ve been talking to a lot of people but nobody makes me feel the same way when you and I talk. I’m sure you’ve been talking to a lot of people as well and I’m glad you’re talking to people than being with yourself again. I know nothing really helps but it takes time and though it will crush me one day to see you happier, I’ll really be happy for you. I’ve been in relationships but each one is different and more challenging. I was happy that I got to be with you and created beautiful memories with you. It’s hard but it’s my favorite. I still have our pictures and chat and I’d go through it from time to time because it makes me feel a bit better to reminisce the past. I hope you’re doing better now if not at least a bit. You have friends that care about you and I was right all along, they will regret how they were towards you back then and they’ll come back to you, or I could be wrong. Whatever it is, I’m happy you’re talking to your friends again. Till the next time, and again, happy national girlfriends day. :)