On loop

Chong Wewah
3 min readOct 19, 2023

Need I say more when I’m writing a new story? I truly believe I found happiness again back in May and I was looking forward to whatever may come my way. Finding someone who matches your energy, and how much you guys click even by the simplest thing like a sense of humor, is pretty rare in my opinion. Honestly, I found someone who was so identical to me and immediately I was attached. I would consider myself lucky for who I’ve met and I love every single thing about this person. Curiosity kicked in, and I took the chance to know this person more day by day.

I remember fondly the things she likes and thought getting her favorite food for her would be a unique way of showing how much she means to me. The relationship since then just got better and we communicated more as things went on. It was almost like a scene from a movie, and every memory just gets stored in the book of memory. On her special day, we went out to have dinner at her favorite place. There even was a discussion about what she wanted as a gift. In the end, she got what she wanted, plus a ‘carefully picked’ gift card that had her favorite sushi, Sashimi. That also became the name of the gift I got her.

It was agreed that when a relationship starts, it’s the 2 against the world, but what went wrong?

There wasn’t enough communication and understanding. Time was ticking, one was prioritized, and one wasn’t. No matter how identical we were, there was something in between us, and that led to a lesser commitment from one side. What happens when there’s not enough commitment? Loss of romantic feelings. What was the solution? I always believe that it takes 2 hands to clap but in this case, apparently, it takes 1 hand to do so. It’s no secret that we all want things to go in our favor, but when it comes to something that involves more than just yourself, there should be a discussion until the 2 or more come to an agreement.

No matter how long it takes to solve the problem, no matter the difficulty of the situation, if you really want this to work, you would work TOGETHER as a TEAM. No matter how much the 2 went through, one never gave up and constantly thought of ways to come back stronger, and the other just gave up like nothing happened. 3 months is a short time, yes, but the time and effort invested in something that was so beautiful, just down the drain.

“I don’t want to lose you. Even if you can’t be my lover, I still want you in my life. Be my super duper close friend? You would tell me if you found someone right? You would still update me on your whereabouts, right? We won’t stop talking, right?”

These lines are a nightmare. Why? Because again, one was trying really hard as if the whole situation was not difficult already, and the other just moved on like nothing happened. Which one am I? I’ll leave you to decide.

Write soon.